So here a siting in my glass box trying to study a language I know I wont be using much. and I have an exam coming up in the next 45 minutes and I know I should be studyin but I am not. Its just that I suddenly remembered that I should write more and I feel like it right now. Some body told me that my writing makes him sad and that I should probably write when I am happy. But dear friend the problem in this disillusioned world is that we are all f!***g dis illusioned and we assume too much and then we go crashing down. Just like some of the things that has been hapennin got me without a pause the past one year...It fulfills its anniversary this april. Wohooooo...and I am still alive. So tell me- when should I write? Coz its always been like this for the past almost 365 days. Happy momnets? Yeah there were plenty - but again the problem is that it all seems to be hooked onto boy issues. Oh! damn!!! I was so happy when I was with him no? yeah ...and I was soo happy when I was with the other him too..!and these are my real happy momnets? Fuck! 27 years wated in measuring happy momnets with all the wrong people who came and went.
So here I am- resolving that my happy momnets from now on will be with anything but the male species. ( this excluding my family of course...but you know what I mean.) I should be recording them from now on. Maybe yesterday's highlight was when Anne Elise jumped about the flat claiming that I was harrasing her which wasn't all that true but what the hell. She is one of the cutest and darling-est friends I have. I mean where can you find a friend who not only cooks for you and lets you get away without washing the dishes, but who also gives you a hug without you askin for it and washes you up when you are sort of blanked out with too much alcohol...eh??
And then there were some again when we just laughed but honestly I don't remember what the topic was. You know besides the happy thoughts I hate looong sentences...they are soo fucking dis illusiioned! and now I seem to love the word dis illusioned...makes me feel that I am not! 35 minutes left for my exam and I am typing at a crazy speed so forgive me if there are about a zillion typos and by the way is it outdated to say ' zillion'...my thoughts are flooowing. So where were we? Aah - loong sentences. Yeah. Hate them. Coz you start at one end and after all those commas and apostophes you forget what the beginnenig was and then you gotto start them all over again no? Blech!
I hope I pass the exam. First time in my life I am blogging or doing something else and not studying just before an exam. Its weird yet so over powering. Oh! if you drink a lot btw do get yourslef a good diet ...maybe that way your memeory can stay good. Cos I just realized while studying that I am all fuzzed in my head. The alcohol I say!
Okay so I should get on with ahppy moments. Actually I just alsmost snared at a friend (funny guy) who hasnt bothered to turn up for any of my parties. I just didnt have the energy to act and say Ohhhh nooo prbs! love you blah blah...I just snarled...you know. But besides that so far hapiness is getting into me. Sorry dear N- didnt mean to snarl. wtf! I know you dont even know I have a blog!
Okies. thats it. No clue what I have written. but its 30 minutes to my exam and I need to grab a coffee from juvenes befor eI go hunting for the exam room. now I can't rememebr the genetiivi and partitiiveees....reminds me of peeves the ghost in the potter series!
Okay! enuf! see you with more happier moments minus the male diorama.
1 comment:
Good grief, you are prolific.
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