Self indulgence! My sexy Brown dress and Me!

(warning: this post is mostly for females andopen minded males. If you know me and don't relate to my stuff, pretend that you didn't read this and we can co-exist. and besides I did warn you.)


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Oh! Am getting there! such fun this is to find my better version or what used to be the fun version! seriously, its taken me 5 months to break sultry thoughts upon a relationship I imagined existed but its great or the feeling is emerging out! Maybe its the snow and white light shining off it thats making me feel warmer inside!

Today for instance I actually wore my snow boots n my hot pants and my woollies and felt so damn hot and gorgeous! A feeling that almost ceased to exist since the summer ended. Suddenly I'm looking forward to the trip to Poland (which starts in a day) and the stay there and meeting wonderful new people and all that jazz! I think the trip to Berlin will also be quite exciting from all the possibilities popping out of my head right now. This feeling of a day filled with possibility is awesome!

I am also thinking, next time around I will not turn away my head when a stranger approaches me at a pub for stray talk- I will drink my vodka diligently and smile with coy once again! I think I'll take my satin brown knee length dress to Poland, a friend of a friend has promised to meet up with me and show me around her city. And I am only hoping that this friend brings around some wonderful other friends of hers, if you know what I mean! Hmm maybe my nine west brown heels too, coz what if one of those hotties at the workshop can do some Argentinian tango? Who knows? The next weeks are filled with all sorts of wonderful possibilities!

I can already imagine this- me in my satin brown corsette type dress, my skin coloured strappy sandals, some pink lipstick, (Oh! and my hair has finally grown back to its original length and its quite wild now with the curls coming back! yay!) and my lovely new wildly expensive brown watch (i have a thing for brown) and some Arden Green Tea and finally the finishing touch which is my all time basic fashion essential--the Indian kajal!! Aaah! The things it does to my eyes! Love them!
Damn! I think this self indulgence is taking me to new heights! Good girl!

So, hopefully this trip should work out just fine for me, besides the work I get to meet all the lovely boys and girls and see all sorts of places and so on and on....

Updates once am back!

oh! and Its good to be getting back!!


ps: the warning was just for kicks!! See? Meeee baaaack! :P

At 4 a.m

It's 4 a.m and am at school still. Rendering images on a software that has been collapsing everytime my structures get a little more complex. It says , it can't handle that. I am now sure 3ds max is a boy.

I don't have a point today. No point to tell you but just thought I'll write some random trash. Like how I slept till 2 pm yesterday as I was in school the previous day till 5 a.m trying to render on this disobeying machine of mine. And how I had tortillas and curry at 6 am coz I was starving. Watched Penelope the second time in a month, and totally thinks that McAvoy guy is made for me. He makes my heart leap just like Al Pacino. Two men who I suppose I can't live without virtually. Oh and I also saw Ps I love you and cried my heart out.

I had planned on going out this Friday, but forgot that it was Friday and ended up in school again. This has to stop coz now I feel that I just can't do without it. Its a good thing I guess in a way.

But the tango lessons are on. I started taking lessons in tango (in order to mend my broken heart by dancing away I'd like to think) and its been fabulous. The friend who teaches me has been tolerant with my erratic behaviour and somehow puts up with it and thinks I've got talent. But last class I almost fell and we did this video thingy where we danced. But when he tried to show it to me I first refused to watch myslef on television (as I told him) and he laughed saying ' dude, its just on my laptop'. So anyways I braced myself to watch me dancing on tv and at first I almost winced at me on screen but it wasnt all that bad. For one I was quite sexy and graceful. Not bad for a beginner. But the only problem was I just learnt from that video that I am bloody fat. So I must stop eating very soon. Literally coz if this goes on the way it is my brother is going to start calling me a beach ball again.

Classes have been going on fine and I learnt that I do my best at school when I am in a hurry. I mean projects I work on for weeks together don't receive as much appreciation compared to what I prepare in an hour. But so far alls been good.

Bah! This totally sucks life at 4 am that is!