At 4 a.m

It's 4 a.m and am at school still. Rendering images on a software that has been collapsing everytime my structures get a little more complex. It says , it can't handle that. I am now sure 3ds max is a boy.

I don't have a point today. No point to tell you but just thought I'll write some random trash. Like how I slept till 2 pm yesterday as I was in school the previous day till 5 a.m trying to render on this disobeying machine of mine. And how I had tortillas and curry at 6 am coz I was starving. Watched Penelope the second time in a month, and totally thinks that McAvoy guy is made for me. He makes my heart leap just like Al Pacino. Two men who I suppose I can't live without virtually. Oh and I also saw Ps I love you and cried my heart out.

I had planned on going out this Friday, but forgot that it was Friday and ended up in school again. This has to stop coz now I feel that I just can't do without it. Its a good thing I guess in a way.

But the tango lessons are on. I started taking lessons in tango (in order to mend my broken heart by dancing away I'd like to think) and its been fabulous. The friend who teaches me has been tolerant with my erratic behaviour and somehow puts up with it and thinks I've got talent. But last class I almost fell and we did this video thingy where we danced. But when he tried to show it to me I first refused to watch myslef on television (as I told him) and he laughed saying ' dude, its just on my laptop'. So anyways I braced myself to watch me dancing on tv and at first I almost winced at me on screen but it wasnt all that bad. For one I was quite sexy and graceful. Not bad for a beginner. But the only problem was I just learnt from that video that I am bloody fat. So I must stop eating very soon. Literally coz if this goes on the way it is my brother is going to start calling me a beach ball again.

Classes have been going on fine and I learnt that I do my best at school when I am in a hurry. I mean projects I work on for weeks together don't receive as much appreciation compared to what I prepare in an hour. But so far alls been good.

Bah! This totally sucks life at 4 am that is!