When there is so much you see.

It's midnight, and I lay in bed sipping tea. I've been reading 'Girl with a pearl earring', and its bringing in a gust of wind err-ing into gloominess. The same guttural feeling of sadness that doesn't fail to elude you when you read such stories. Its always the people elsewhere, like the Geisha whose story is brought to you in straight lines. No bends. It's this or that. It's black or white. There is no blending of words, there is just happiness or pain. There is depth but you must read into it, otherwise you're lost to the sounding of the words. It's when they talk of things, as though there could have been no other way. 
I had transgressed into the realms of that world long ago, and then I stopped short of falling lightly into it.
She wanted to the see The Hague. A younger me had then walked through den Hague, the cold wind infringing my body. 
A Pearl S Buck does the same thing to me. There are no colors. None. What remains is simply a deep sense of regret and sorrow. 
Maybe that's why I still have the urge to read an Indian writer. They act as pauses. For you to regain familiarity, to the world that you know, where I could pose a beautiful white frangipani to my thick black hair and smile at you, and you wouldn't know how much my hands bled just before that. Something like a Swahili love poem.

In other news, DID I mention that I have a cool mother?

Oh you guys! My step mother is super cool. Seriously. Just when I was thinking she CANNOT facebook chat, she turns around and surprises me, with not just by replying to my heyloooos but also by stating words such as good as GUD [that's a HUGE deal for me if a parent can do that!], AND mind you, using CAPS at necessary places where emoting is a necessity! 

Aaaand I can totally talk to her about anything under the sun. I talked about my wonderful Jungle trip and she emoted back ya know with the right words like "oooh ya?" [ok. not really ooh ya but something to that effect]. and she wanted to know more about the people I met there, in a very non judgemental-i-AM-your -mother- and -i need-to-know-this stuff sorta way. And then I told her I might head out up north and she goes, "to meet your new friends, is it?", and I go, "Yup", and she says, "verry good, you go have some fun [of course I know she meant that in a very asexual way, but still]. 

How how HOOOOOOW cool is THAT? 

Oh and ten points if you can guess where my roadtrip will take me ?

Clues my lil cluedos : 
Tote-zenzi-lllooots of shopping!-mindless paparazzi- leopold's-malabAR hil and tons n tons more for a girl like me!
Um. Yehes! 
And yes of course my mother did add, "The only real metro in India, you really must go."

I AM the BRIGHT and Shiny one!

Officially, I am a much happier person right now than the past two days. Reason you ask? I sulked around in bed way too long, that when I got a call from a childhood friend from school [who was visiting Kochi], I leapt out with all the ardour I could harbor, dressed up, dolled myself and went out for dinner and drinks. 
First we went to this seafood place on Wellington Island at the Casino hotel, and well, washed down the pomfret fry with some good ol' scotch. We reminisced about our school days, the trips we made and how after all the zest we carried around then, we've all pretty much landed back on familiar grounds. Divorced.
He brought along another friend of his, who drove us around, and paid the bills [I almost love free food!!], and we chatted and chatted until our heads drooped. The chatterati that we are, landed us at another quaint joint for some Indian chai before I got dropped off back home.
Anyhow, good end to a rather slow tiring day. 
Oh and the best thing though besides meeting an old friend was my GRAND new discovery of "Flipcart"!! weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
I mean really. Whoever gets you whatever you want to your doorstep, without you even paying for it until it IS on your lap? That, in my opinion is uber-cool consumer strategy or some rather intelligent thing like that. So I ordered for two books. One is "You are Here", by Meenakshi Reddy Madhavan, and the other one is " The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo", which I've heard no end of, and now I am quite curious about this hullabaloo surrounding it.
I've the "Girl with a pearl earring" right in front of me as I type this, and I've realized that I do have much to catch up with in the literary world. [Again one of those things that happened to me while at the jungle].
So I'm all into reading and reading, just like before and back to getting my work and some amount of travelling coming up very soooon! Yayyy! I love it when exciting things happen. 
Oooookie.
Goodnight whoever it is that's reading me right now.


[PS: Apparently flipcart's been around for ages!! I DID NOT know that until those funny little ads started appearing on television lately. You know the ones with kids dressed as adults? Hmph].

She's all THAT!

Oh well part II can wait. 


Few ways I shall be behaving from now on, in Public and in...well, am mostly outside my home so anyway...

1. Will not imagine to be Bridget Jones and mentally make bullet points in my head while talking to others.
2. Instead of Bridget I am now a very clan-ish society lady [in my head], who looks down upon others at all times. [wink wink: TEN points if you know who am talking about ;)]
3. If I want something I will ask for it.
4. Will rehearse how to talk, walk, also walk sideways, walk in a fashion where people assume that I am indeed very supreme before heading to parties , so that above mentioned [2] is endorsed better.
5. Will always carry a clutch at fancy parties, and will stop scrambling about holding cosmopolitans in one hand and a cigarette in the other.
6. Will learn to amble while at said parties. This with a mojito in one hand should be quite acceptable I would think.
7. If at said parties, the host plays electronic music, sneer at him [ elegantly of course]. I like only jazz and such kinds of acceptable music from now on. 
8. BUT if at all the electronic music does get to my soul [like it normally did in 2011 and the ninety nine years before that], then slowly move away from the crowd, move backwards, and quickly scamper away to nearest bathroom. One can do whatever one wants when not in public.
9. Date.
10. Samarah and Chris. You guys must go. Here, to know more about S & C.
11. Coo-h-l. Wadup! Wot Rubbish. YEA Right. All such are to be dismissed from today.
12. New useful words/ phrases to be used while being esp. at parties:                    "Indeed, How humid and trepid can this weather get?" [ after which I shall hold my drink and stand petite-ly with big bambi eyes], OR                                                  " "Oh dear! YOU look dashing [for men] and simply gorgeous [for women]." [back to standing, as mentioned above]. OR " I love to sit at home and paint and write songs, while am not taking care of my neighbor's kids." [emphasis much on the kids, so that the general idea is that you're harmless, which you are but they don't know that soooo.]
13. Will not be dating men who swear OR dress badly. But now that you ask, if you are quite able to handle your drink, can drink me under the table [although now that I've switched to really being elegant etc I may not be doing that much in public], if you can come up with clever lines to say every now and then, and most importantly if you can laugh at my jokes, listen to my drunken tales, take me dancing, buy me flowers....you get the drift? I am all for being a bit of a romantic this year.
14. I will practice my dance moves before every party.
15. Imaginary husband also needs to go. [Look up *10 for more on that].
16. Will learn more about ROFL, ROFMALAO, and all such weird sounding words and include them more often in my text messages.
17. Will interject random conversations with phrases like:  belle journee n'est pa [beautiful day is it not?] while sipping tea of course [D-uh].
18. I realllllly wanted 18 points. I like the number 18. But there's only so many ways I found. 

So here's to a BRAND NEW YEAR.

[PS: OMG!! Did you realize smtg?? By public I just meant parties!!]

[PS PS: At the risk of sounding jumpy,at point 13, might I add, if you can sneak me drinks while we're out, then that's an added bonus. JUHUST mentioning ;)]