Much to do much to do including smother certain people while trying to finish my thesis work. I have been trying to achieve success by being single for as much as I can. While watching a certain series I encountered questions such as:
a. do you want a man?
b. do you need a man?
Thing is for quite some time now I haven't had a man (I am talking 1 year minus a few distractions and a few straying crushes). Waking up in the morning, brewing my coffee, walking up to school, grabbing my second cuppa, switching on my laptop, designing, sketching, running through the books, stealing a few drags in the balcony, lunch with the boys, lunch with the girls, shopping, caring for friends, cooking butter chicken, cleaning my kitchen, buying soap.....all this and more without actually finding the need for a man. But still I wonder am I completely happy being on my own? or am in living in denial?
Who knows.
This came at about the time when I had a random chat with my grandmother who since she has turned old and is currently living alone decided to spice up her life by taking my star chart and horoscope leftovers to the astrologer. This man in question then told her as a matter of fact that I would indeed never find a man until I do. It is all upto me. She tells me this with good humour, complete confidence that she doesn't doubt my capabilities in doing so and with complete candor that it woke me up. Shoot.
Now I have to find a man? It was easy when your parents did that for you. You could blame them for the rest of your life. But in this case we gotto do the dirty work all on our own?
Not good. It seems to me that there is nothing much I can do about it anymore. The good guys don't wanna marry you. The bad guys don't wanna marry you or anybody else. The good guys can sleep with you. The bad guys can sleep with you. Guys in general can sleep with you. And with all this retardness flying about and all the temptations, you have to let them down, find excuses and wonder at whats going on.
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GOD. The first thing that seems to happen when women get educated and try to realise their potential is that men don't know what the hell to do. Society seems to have been based on women living in the background. Now that women seem to be questioning all that crap, OMG, society is falling apart. And men, both good and bad, don't know how to handle it. Sick shit. I've had it up to here with all this BS.
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